E Plurubus Unum, Rex Montis

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

For the fallen...

It doesn't hit home until it is one of your own.
He was not the first of our own on this deployment to leave us forever, but I hope he is the last.
He wasn't just another name on a list of thousands...he wasn't a number or a resource...he was a son to a proud mother and father, a brother to several sisters and brothers...a fiance' to one he loved...a fellow soldier and friend to us all. He brought a smile to our faces and was quick to laugh. I was proud to call him a fellow soldier, I was prouder still to have called him friend. My heart and deepest regrets go out to those that knew him.
I am trying with everything that is in me to not regret that our time together is over, but to be happy for the time that we had. Words are easier than reality. I miss him to no end. The dull ache in my chest won't leave. I still can't write his name. It doesn't feel right, not yet...
I give a nod of my head to those that were wounded in the attack. I pray God speed and a quick recovery.
There is an old saying that "All gave some, some gave all." This has never been truer. To all of the families that have been forced upon the ultimate sacrafice, I cannot know the pain you feel. But while I weather any storm life has to offer, know that I will never forget, I will never let go, of the memory of the man that touched us all with the warmth he offered in life, and the bittersweet touch he leaves on us all in death...may you never be forgotton.
In loving memory.....see you one day in eternity my friend, save me a seat.

Thursday, March 22, 2007


I am fighting a battle with insomnia and I'm not sure if I'm winning. I hate not being able to sleep. It doesn't happen very often, I usually fall asleep shortly after my head hits the pillow. Maybe it's because my sleep schedule got messed up a few days ago and it's been hard to re-correct. Maybe it's because I've had a lot on my mind. Maybe it's because this deployment is just taking its toll on me, and my mind and body don't know what to do anymore.
Sometimes I feel like a rat in a box...move left, get electric shock, move right, electric shock, lay down, shock, get up, matter what you do there is the shock/electricity/Iraq.
I don't even know if I'm making any sense. I feel like a "bla." That is, if "bla" is a noun.

Even when I'm not fighting insomnia or some other evil villain, I don't think I ever really truely feel "rested." I get enough sleep, eat "all right" and get plenty of excercise...but the feeling of infinaty without end won't go away...
Will this deployment never end?

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Up and Running

Thank you all for your time and patience. All systems go...stand by for launch (whenever that may be...I'll post something as soon as I'm inspired). Hope you all like the new look. Thanks all for stopping bye.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Under Repair

This site will be under repair for an unknown amount of time, certain prior posts may or may not be available. Thanks for visiting!

Monday, March 12, 2007


We are part of the "troop surge" ordered by President Bush. Here I thought that meant more troops in, more...aditional...troops. Well, there are some, but our unit is part of that "surge." Yes, hence the extention. So when asked by a fellow soldier what I'm doing, the proper response of course is, "SURGING!"
Not much going on here right now. I'm on gate guard for the time being until it's time for patrols again. I just feel obligated to write something because I haven't posted in weeks.
The rocket and mortar attacks have increased along with spring. We've had 4 attacks in the past two weeks. I don't even step out to look anymore. A year of attacks becomes the norm after a while. It is fun to watch the new guys running around though!
This picture is a pose of the norm for watching an attack.