Brothers

Brothers
E Plurubus Unum, Rex Montis

Friday, August 31, 2007

relaxing still

I just got back from a week at a resort south of town. It was a wonderfull time for me, my wife and son. As a token of appreciation to Minnesota veterans, the owners let us stay for free. What a wonderful gesture. We had a wonderful stay. We spent our time at various activities; biking, paddle boating, touring, sleeping, and a general time of relaxing.
We spent a lot of time just sitting around the cabin.
Near the end of our stay, we hooked up with a fellow soldier from my unit who lives in that town. We had a nice double date with my son being the fun fifth wheel. Most of the conversation kept turning to my friend and me reminiscing over our time in the sand, our time back home, and our plans for the future. It felt very good to see old friends again.
The conversation gave me food for thought, as I realized I still have some unresolved issues that need dealing with. A lot of anger that I thought would leave after I got home.

I am taking an additional writing course this fall semester just for fun. I needed one more class to top off my workload, and nothing else remained that was “degree specific.” We’ll see how that goes. I would like to do something in writing “professionally” down the road, and I might as well get a start now. This blog has been, and continues to be, a great source of free writing and expression. I have gathered material, as time allowed, throughout the deployment to Iraq. I plan on using posts from this blog and my personal journal to write a book detailing my full experiences leading up to, during, and returning home from a near two year deployment. I have no timelines or expectations yet. Only a thought in my mind and the scribbling of a young soldier. We’ll see what comes of it.

Friday, August 24, 2007

relax

Staring out my living room window, I wondered if technology had indeed empowered us or hindered us in the pursuit of happiness. I am a fairly happy guy, but watching traffic go by and people bustling too and fro, I wondered why everyone is always in such a rush. I suddenly became very claustrophobic and had to get outside. I told my wife I’d be back, and jumped on my [pedal] bike and headed down the street. No destination in mind, just a need…

I rounded a corner by the edge of some woods and saw a path I hadn’t noticed before. As this was a random bike ride anyway, I turned onto it. After hopping several logs I realized I was completely out of town. I was heading down a tunnel of green vegetation. Leaves brushed my shoulders. Ducking my head to avoid a low limb I felt a thrill of excitement. I was outside feeling transported to a different world in the blink of an eye. Up and down small hills I went, passing flowers and shrubs. No bombs to watch for, no snipers to hide from, just trees and birds and green. I gained speed as the as the hill dropped away. Coasting towards the bottom I was forced to stop as I came upon a small creek. I surmised that it was a man-made river of sorts as it was perfectly straight.

I got off my bike and walked over the single log bridge…I turned upstream and enjoyed the sun on my face and the wind in my ears. Complete solitude. Complete peace. What a moment in time. I paused a minute more and then headed home.
Looking forward to my next adventure.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Freedoms slipping, you can help

Friends, family and readers, there is a bill before the senate right now; S. 1105 the "Hate crimes" bill. It classes homosexuals as a special class of people and gives them special "rights." Homosexuals would become a protected class where hetrosexuals are not. A clear violation of the 14th amendment section 1. "...nor deny to any person within its jurisdiction the equal protection of the laws." It also conflicts with the First amendment; "Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech..."

This bill S. 1105 is in no way equal. This bill implies "thought crimes." So now "they" are going to try to tell me what I can and can't think? I've lost enough freedoms already thank you.
I would urge any persons reading this to go to the link below, find your representatives and give them a call. Our freedoms are slowly eroding. If you have ever read the book
"Nineteen Eighty-Four (or 1984)" or watched the movie, you will be suprised at the similarities.

I have made my phone calls and was shocked that one of my representatives is in full support of this bill. Her assistant saying it gives law enforcement and prosecutors "tools to prosecute and help..." Before I write more I need to take some time to cool down and think objectively... this bill should be voted on today, so I ask that you make the call right away.

http://www3.capwiz.com/afanet/callalert/index.tt?alertid=10009606&type=CO

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

A hint of dew

Being home is wonderfull. Yet, just when I think I am finding "normal" I get a new curv ball or bumpy road. My son knows exactly who I am and loves me. For that I am ever gratefull. Yet, we are still getting used to each other. I don't understand everything he tries to say and after several tries he screams his frustration at me. We're learning.
My wife has been a God-send. We are both working on our communication. I have learned that she has done this for almost two years without me, and I am the one in need of lessons in home living. Some things I have figured out for myself...like beer :)

I decided to return to school this fall semester and get done with my degree already. It will be good to be doing something. Though, I have kept busy getting back into the swing of things...I have a long way to go...but I feel willing and able to get a start on things! In the meantime it has been nice to be able to do my manly duties again. Fixing the car, organizing my man room (garage), catching up with friends and family...it's a journey that has been ongoing for three weeks now....THREE WEEKS ALREADY!!! It seems like yesterday I was rolling in Wisconsin grass! Not much has changed, I still love the grass. Last night my son looked up, pointed and proclaimed, "Clouds!" I appreciate the little things in life, and my son seems to be able to find those best. So we laid down in our yard on the grass and cloud watched for all of 10 seconds, at which time he was off and running to find something else of interest.

I hope all the other soldiers and families are doing well. I'm still getting used to things and I think it will be months yet before I am used to being home. Looking forward to those curv balls straightening out, and those bumps seeming not so big......but life seems to be good at throwing those at you no matter what walk of life...

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Home and NEVER leaving!

Reality check happened when I killed a small bird the other day. Such a tiny little thing, but it kept trying to bite me! I smacked it, which left it stunned, then pounded it again when it started moving. It was the most unusual specimen I'd ever seen....until my wife informed me I had not killed a bird at all, that it was a common mistake....I had in fact slain a mosquito!

Being home is such a strange and wonderfull feeling. I get a shock or a jump here and there....large crowds, loud noises...but I'm adjusting fast.

The best site to see when we first got off the bus, and my most fond memory upon first arriving, was my wife's beautiful face lit up like a Christmas tree, holding an equaly sparkling young son. My wife put him down and he ran across the floor to me yelling, "Daddy daddy!" The entire way. He has taken to me right away, never a moment of confusion as to who I was. I have my lovely wife to thank for that. What a moment I had when they were both in my arms.

I have been eating in restaraunts, consuming beer, BBQing and much much more! There is so much to do, so many people to catch up with, and so much to see. I'll keep you up to date.